I am in the midst of wilderness of my youngness. I dance. I sing. I drink. I celebrate life. I see my life as young and free, full of dreams and hope.
Then I met you. You looked at me. You smiled at me. Then you called me Friend. Out of one’s depth of this soul is the desire to be with you each day. I must say that I am so much comfortable with you.
I showed you my flaws. I thought you’d leave me, but you stay. I brought you to my chaos world, yet you seemed that you enjoy being part of my peculiar world. You embrace every inch of my soul. And you said, “Thank you” after you saw who I am.
Since then, everything changed. You showed me unique happiness. Then I felt a genuine love. Am I in the state of being in love? The uncertain things that I never felt before, but I guess this is just an infatuation which I know it is not.

Now, I face my greatest enemy, and which is myself. The battle between myself and the other side of being me. I choose to ignore you. I tried to be insensitive. At the end of the day, I know you’d ask why I am hurting myself.
I am not being selfish. I am protecting my heart. Yes, I am afraid. I am coward. I don’t want to be hurt. I guess cupid’s arrow is as strong as the bullet fired at me that I failed in ignoring this emotion.
So I sat, paused and watched how beautiful the sunset in the gloomy sky. Tomorrow is another day, another chance to live. Yes! A chance. Today, I distress this emotion. I was slapped by truth which I cannot escape.
Our feelings are mutual, we both know that. Let’s give it a try. You and me to the next level.